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Thursday | May 10, 2012
03.57 pm - My Special Someone
She's funny: makes me smile and laugh.
She's comfortable with who she is.
She's quite pretty.
She loves God and cares for others.
She is patient and laid-back.
We talk for hours on end, about anything and everything.
We make anything fun.
We get each others jokes; our sense of humor is similar.
I miss her already, but summer is shorter than it seems.
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Tuesday | November 29, 2011
01.00 pm
It's that part of you that you express in music, art, kindness, poetry. The part of your innermost being that gives some sort of definition to your personality.
When you lose a physical object that you imposed your personality onto, you feel like you're missing something. The painting that you sold, the poem that you gave away, the sheet music you lost. You feel like a part of you is gone forever, even though you fully retain the source that inspired your creations.
But I'll never remember that poem, even though I know the meaning. And all those songs I sing only to forget because I never write them down. And while the cop stood behind me as I washed away my mural from the tunnel, I found it freeing to be in control of the destruction of my own creation, rather than leaving it up to time and chance.
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Sunday | November 27, 2011
10.19 pm - Everything happens
in the blink of an eye.
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Saturday | October 08, 2011
11.40 pm - default
don't wanna leave and
i don't wanna stay
don't wanna sit and
i don't wanna play
i don't wanna know why
i'm feeling this way
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Tuesday | July 06, 2010
11.30 am - "Will we ever find peace?"
Weezer
"This Is Such A Pity"
This is such a pity.
We should give all our love to each other.
Not this hate that destroys us.
This is such a pity.
(This is a pity)
Been stuck in my head for such a while now. I just want rainbows and unicorns for all of my friends.
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Thursday | December 17, 2009
09.02 am - Dreams last night
Tyler says:
i had dream last night
i was telling you a story
and you thought it was lame
Tom says:
sry
Tyler says:
so you made this obnoxious "meh" like noise.
and then you kept making it.
and then i woke up.
and it was josh's snoring.
Tom says:
lol
Tyler says:
i had lots of dreams we were hanging out last night.
like there was this red truck
with a poster on the back.
this huge poster.
so we took the poster and we were going to go hang it up on a building.
but we chickened out.
and there were no good buildings.
so we put it back on the truck
and the owner of the truck was there.
and he was mexican.
and we put it back on his truck.
and then he said to us
"you guys need to get something better to do.
in spanglish.
Then a 15 passenger suv rolled up
filled with people
and then you were like "that's average's girlfriend"
and then the 15 passenger van left to go to Central Park
and then another SUV (normal size) rolled in and average was there
and he said hi to us
and shook everyone's hand
then he said gg central park.
and all of this took place in the lamberts/7-11 parking lot.
Tom says:
hmm lamberts
i think thats where im getting lunch
ty
Tyler says:
np
maybe that's why i had this dream.
to help you figure out lunch.
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Monday | December 14, 2009
04.59 pm - Writing
An excerpt from my website.
I honestly forgot how much I enjoyed writing. This blog has made me forget.
I wanted to write about hacks and computers. About the cutting edge technology. About gadgets, about fixing things. I wanted to write game reviews. Tips to help people digitally and spiritually. To help them grow closer to God, perhaps.
At this point now, it seems as though I forgot why I like writing. I like writing fiction. I like making stuff up, letting my imagination loose on the keyboard. I like telling stories more than I like reading them. I like making them up.
When I create something that is my own, I can not be told I am wrong or inaccurate. I can't mess up the facts or my citations when I am the author.
I'm planning on taking my writings in a new direction. Away from non-fiction, away from facts. There are a million blogs out there about the latest tech/hacks/trends. There are a handful of websites far better for encouraging walks with Christ.
However, there are currently zero websites with all the creatures dwelling within my imagination. Time to get on that.
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Sunday | November 08, 2009
10.10 pm - fire
I think the worst part is that I need to ration my battery life. 49 minutes remaining.
out.
Thanks nat for grabbing my laptops.
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Tuesday | October 27, 2009
03.18 pm - Hope.
What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. Ecclesiastes 1:9
I also believe this includes feelings. Which I find comforting, to know that there have been other people that have felt the way that I feel. That deep down, I'm not too different from at least one other person. And in assuming this, I also conclude that the person survived. Survived what? I'm not exactly sure, but I'm thinking that part of their life. Whether it was their darkest hour or just a bump in the road. They survived.
I also find it comforting that God is always with me. And He's taught me to not get so worked up over things. Even big things, He's been teaching me to stay patient and calm. Whether it's messing up my laptop, having to have a tough conversation with someone, losing my keys, losing my car Title, feeling lonely or anything really. He's taught me how to stay calm. And it comes together in time. Everything has come together. For this I'm eternally grateful. This patience and calm (peace) that God has been teaching me is such a blessing.
When you feel like your world is falling apart, take things one step at a time.
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. Matthew 16:24
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34
See more of Matthew 6. Mainly 25-34
It's all alright and it's all going to be alright.
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Tuesday | September 22, 2009
03.41 pm - Hunting for a Loan
I'm looking for a loan so I can buy a Honda Element. They are hard to come by for private property sales. I wouldn't be able to afford a new one or even a used one from the dealership.
But I was put in touch with someone that is selling theirs because they are in the process of moving to the UK. I'm able to buy the car for 9.4K which is really good considering. I checked it out yesterday. It has some minor cosmetic damage but the car is in pretty good shape.
Downside: it's a manual. I'd catch on quick though, I've done it a little bit but not enough to say I can really drive stick.
So I put a deposit down on the car and now I have to try and get a loan. The owner leaves to go back to the UK October 7th.
Cape Cod Five only does loans on cars 2005 or newer. This one is 2004. Dang. They do personal loans as well though. Max is 5K. Dang. Tried applying online for a loan from Bank of America. Declined. That's only because they couldn't see my sad puppy eyes. I'll have to try in person. Josh and Tom recommend Citizens Credit Union. I'll have to look into that.
But even if I can't find a loan, I really only lost the deposit (but I could beg for it back...) and that's still technically saving money, right? Wouldn't be so bad apart from my car lacks heat on the driver side. That's the only thing that really bothers me about my current car. Other than that it's in pretty good shape. (Well, not the dents. lol) But mechanically it's fine. In the last year it's gotten new brake pads, rotors, tires and a new battery. Some other things I can't remember.
After paying for all this the mechanic said to me, "Wow, you must really like that car." That's when I knew it was time to move on. But if Sheila and I spend some more time together, it won't be all that bad. After all, it's just another part of the adventure. But I really don't want this Element to slip through my fingers. But it will be, what it will be and I'll be okay with the outcome. I've already decided that.
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